Postings on a goth website by Kimveer Gill, the trenchcoat-wearing gunman behind the fatal shooting at Montreal's Dawson College, paint a suicidal portrait of the 25-year-old.

In an autobiographical survey, he answers the question, "How do you want to die?" with an eerie foreshadowed response: "Like Romeo and Juliet -- or -- in a hail of gunfire."

Gill died after shooting himself in the head, but not before wounding more than a dozen people and killing 18-year-old Anastasia DeSousa.

In a blog on VampireFreaks.com, an online hub of goth culture, journal entries made in Gill's name speak about the hatred he feels toward society and his obsession for guns.

His "likes" include "crushing my enemies skulls" and "Super Psycho Maniacs roaming the streets freely."

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The blog includes a photo of a tombstone with his name printed on it. Below it, the phrase reads: "Lived fast died young. Left a mangled corpse."

Gill reveals himself as a lonely, troubled person with a hatred of society and authority figures like police, principals and teachers. He blames jocks for high school bullying.

He also offers a survey on whether visitors to his blog are depressed.

Gill's image gallery, which contains more than 50 images, depicts the young man in various poses holding a Baretta CX4 Storm semi-automatic rifle and donning a long black trenchcoat and combat boots.

"His name is Trench. You will come to know him as the Angel of Death," he wrote.

"He is not a people person. He has met a handfull (sic) of people in his life who are decent."

But, he says he finds the vast majority to be "worthless, no good, kniving, betraying lieing (sic), deceptive."

Gill posted his last journal entry at 10:41 a.m. Wednesday, about two hours before he killed himself.

In it, he praises how good whisky tastes in the morning, and in an earlier posting talks about eating eggs and toast for breakfast.

The most prominent photo on the blog shows a close up of Gill, sporting a Mohawk, staring intently at the camera, his teeth clenched, with the caption "Anger and hatred simmers within me."

Another picture shows a picture of whisky bottle, with the caption, "My favorite drink (1 part whiskey, 2 parts Coca Cola, 1 part insanity)."

"Rock and Roll baby!" reads the caption below another photo, his tongue outstretched, holding a black semi-automatic weapon with one hand and making the sign of the devil with another.

Gill also wears a black and red mask in some pictures.

Another caption reads, "Meh....life sucks," while another simply states "F--- the world."

Gill, who is known to other users on the website as Fatality666, describes himself as Indian, 6-foot-one, who was born in Montreal on July 9, 1981.

Reports say Gill lived in Laval, north of Montreal, with his mother.

He says "heavy metal rulz," and lists Natural Born Killers as his favourite movie.

Gill describes life "as a video game, you've got to die sometime.'' He says he is a fan of the controversial and violent video game series "Postal," in which the targets are everyday human beings completing everyday errands.

Gill says his weakness is laziness and that he fears nothing. He says his most missed memory is "being young."

In a posting at 5 a.m. the day before the shootings, Gill blasts authority figures and says "society disgusts me."

"It's not only the bullies fault, but the principal's fault for turning a blind eye ... it's the police's fault for not doing anything when people complain (ooooops) my mistake, the cops are corrupt sons of whores, so it's not like they can do anything about it. F--- the police," he wrote.

Also on Gill's "likes" list are: massacres, trenchcoats and destruction.

He dislikes "The world and everything in it."

"But to be more specific," he continues, he hates jocks, preps, country music, Hip Hop, "bible-thumping know-it-alls," God and "all those who oppose my rule."

'People on the site are generally very friendly'

Jethro Berelson, who owns VampireFreaks.com, said Gill's shooting rampage should not lead the public to condemn goth culture.

"You know, I think people on the site are generally very friendly and nice, and don't really do any crimes," he told The Canadian Press from Brooklyn, N.Y.

"But just because there's so many users on there - we have 600,000 users - it's only a matter of statistics that there's going to be a couple of users that are going to commit crimes, in any population of 600,000."

Several people posted comments on the site after the shooting, deploring Gill and emphasizing that his actions do not reflect goths.

Someone using the name XxBeautyNDecayxX wrote: "This is a terrible incident that happened. Columbine was bad enough -- now this. It's going to give VampireFreaks somewhat of a bad rep ... I can't believe that one of our own would commit this type of act."

But former Toronto homicide detective Mark Mendolson believes someone who saw Gill posing with a gun on his blog should have alerted authorities. In one image, Gill appears to be holding a rifle in the basement of his Montreal home.

"Something like this, you don't keep to yourself," Mendolson told CTV News. "So there are probably scores of his peers or colleagues from school, who have seen him with this gun -- I am quite sure. And what did they all do about it?"

Berelson said he is urging the site's users to report suspicious behaviour, but said there are too many blogs to check each one thoroughly.

"It's not like we can moderate everything," he told CP.

"And even if he is holding a gun in a picture, that's not necessarily a crime."

Neighbours say shooter changed recently

Neighbours who live near the family home of Gill said he changed over the last several years.

"You see it when you see somebody stranger, but you don't think of anything," Louise Leykauf, who lives across the street, told CTV's Austin Delaney.

Leykauf said the family has lived on the quiet, tree-lined street in Laval, Que., north of Montreal, for more than 10 years.

"It was only lately ... that he wore dark clothes," she said. "Dark clothes and a funny haircut."

The younger residents said Gill stopped saying hello to them.

"He didn't act friendly, so I didn't want to interfere," said 25-year-old Isabelle, who has known him since he was a boy.

Another neighbour, a young man, described Gill as a loner. "He never had friends with him. He was always alone, never with friends," he said.

Neighbours said Gill stuck out like a sore thumb in the community, but they described his parents as pleasant people.

The relatives have not opened the door to the hordes of reporters and media who have set up outside the home.

Police entered the home Wednesday and seized Gill's computer, Delaney reported.

With files from The Canadian Press